questions existing...

truth is... i feel like i'm setting myself for a heartbreak
as much as i'm reassured by your words
i'm threatened by your extreme friendliness towards others
for instance, our good mornings no longer feels special
you ask others to say good morning to you when i thought it was just me who had that priviledge
i'm bothered
i'm confused
i'm annoyed
i'm hurt
but i can't do anything... we're not together... only talking
i want to tell you what i truly feel but i can't i don't want to push you away
i don't want to come off as controlling
i don't want to be like your ex
but now i understand where he's coming from
i now feel what he feels when others talk to you
it really does hurt
am i really doing the right thing here?
should i really invest this much effort into this?
what do i do?
am i better off being alone...